Nobody Said Things Were Going To Be Easy

No, I haven't abandoned my blog for good, although http://www.blogger.com has disappeared from my history list.

It has been a long period since I last blogged. Shall throw in "busy", "laziness", and "no mood" as excuses.

Looks like so many people are troubled lately. One friend has "gone on a hiatus". Another "closed down" her blog. Just attended a wake recently of a friend's dad. And there are so many vulgarities on msn lately. Another "feels like slapping myself". And most importantly, someone's experiencing snowballs.

I just cleaned my toilet, after so long, after so many people got disgusted by it they couldn't say anything. Dusty even made a home video with it sometime ago with his almost-collecting-dust videocam, with some haunting Gregorian music playing from my lappie in the background.

I wonder why it took so long for me to do it. Did I really need to wait until I almost fell down from my slippers not being able to resist the slimy friendly algae before I could do it? Was I waiting for my neighbours, aka 02 X toilet-cleaning-almost-bochuppers to do it?

In lyfe lately, I guess it's been like this.

I've been watching things rot from a distance, watching myself rot with indiscipline. Waiting for miracles to happen, waiting for someone else to somehow clear the rot.

Watching others grow strength to strength, learning. Observing and yet doing nothing to improve myself. True, we can't compare with everyone, but hey, what's that stoning for? The world will just pass me by.

Been waking up. Started my first run in months with my regular night ops partner. We conquered but didn't manage to rescue danny from the grip of Warcraft III. Had a good chat with jac last night. Reminds me that everyone has their own problems, stress and worries. And it's a good sign that I've just washed my toilet.

I just made a speech about emotional baggage and clutters in speech class. Have to practice what I preach. I will clear the clutters soon.

As one msn nick says now - "Winners make things happen, losers wait for things to happen". Do you want to be a fighter, or a quitter?