Ties That Bind

The situation couldn't have gotten any worse than this week. But well, I'm still clinging on to faith, although it feels like I'm literally hanging by a thread now.

"Ties that bind" was the theme last night. That was really apt. I spent the whole time talking to yj while playing babysitter at the campfire.

So we talked about the same old issues - how different boys are today, how screwed up the H*Q is, how the whole idea of a campfire has changed.

Then on to ourselves - how we just can't seem to find the right leaders to take over the reins, how people are less likely to step forward today, self-centredness and all.

Lucky him, he had a three-year break to pursue his overseas degree before continuing his half-year term in OCS. And now he's serving under the research department with the civilians.

I never quite found the time/people to be able to get a break since I first stepped foot into the commitment 6 years ago.

It feels good to be reaffirmed that there are people facing the same problems as yourself. Even though problems weren't solved over the session, but at least you know you're not alone.

(Plays Michael Jackson's "You are not alone" in the background. Hurhur)

I wished people would understand, would help, would stop breathing down my neck, would cheer me up with 'lil surprises, would tolerate me during this period, would give me a pat of encouragement on the back.

I need all the faith in the world to get thru another week of the mess.